Anami Grace | Made Up Life

Being all autism and air signs is hilarious. Y’all. I’m often the first to recognize patterns in the world, but the last to see them in my own life. So. That’s fun.

1-2-3 all eyes on me – stick with me for this one. I am excited to share this with y’all. It’s going to require some emotional support context, but I will weave the story together for you.

Last night I realized that one of my favorite gifts to come from my spiritual healing journey was my chin and jawline. Yeah. You read that right. I have completely changed the shape of my face over the past two years and while I still have a double chin from some angles – my jawline has changed so significantly that my front teeth are now a tiny bit crooked. And I think it’s adorable, and I’m going to give it a minute before I decide if intervention is necessary.

It’s proof that you truly never know what decision is going to significantly change your life. Right?

For me it was following through with the sleep study ordered by my primary care physician more than 2 years ago now. It was so positive that the sleep dealer called me the next morning with the news that I was trying to un-alive myself 99 times an hour, and hadn’t probably ever gotten a restful night’s sleep because of my facial anatomy for my. ENTIRE LIFE.

Having braces twice had helped me to be able to breathe out of my nose, but it had not actually given me the ability to sleep and breathe at the same time. Which is so dumb now that I look back on it. It was so obvious that I was exhausted all the time, I was so good at masking that it was like the iceberg of chronic conditions.

Being able to sleep well, for the first time in my life was the KEY. The key to unlocking me was through giving my body what she needed desperately. Peaceful, deep, restful, sleep.

Meeting this previously unmet need liberated my body, soul, and spirit in ways I’m STILL discovering today.

This is where I wish you could try on my joy for a moment, because it spins like an entire universe of love in my chest, and every time I move music through my body it just makes that universe more expansive and joyful. And I have this really fun talent of being even more beautiful when I’m doing something I love. You really should go check out my TikTok same username over there: awkwardgrace13, and watch me do it. It’s so fucking cool.

Sleeping well gave me the life changing curiosity to look at my drinking and ask my doctor for help changing my relationship with alcohol. And this is where I point out that substance use is almost always a symptom of a greater need, that we’ve been trying to 12 step the ever-loving shit out of and it doesn’t work.

I used alcohol to try and sleep. Because I couldn’t FALL asleep. I had to pass out. Which. Is so heartbreaking for me to see so clearly now. However, I couldn’t know what I didn’t know, and I have to give myself the compassion that I’ve carried for others my entire life.

Shame is not an effective or useful tool for behavior modification, and we have to give ourselves the GIFT of meeting the unmet need abundantly, and work on the behavior modification as a secondary need. Right?

And so as I’m discovered the gift of myself through having my basic needs met through a variety of avenues (mostly in acts of devotion for my human body) I have found that it’s undeniable that I will have the life that I want, and as I move through my life creating the life that I want, I’m going to do everything within my power to help point others toward their self-efficacy in meeting their needs. Simply because we never know what seemingly inconsequential decision is going to launch us straight on to the path of us.

Right?

Might give you a whole new jaw line and create a love story so powerful between you and you that it might have an affect on every part of the universe of you.

Here is where I get to tie the bow together for you. Because of my CPAP, I had to start using mouth tape and practicing better tongue posture. Which changed my jaw line and made my teeth just a tiny bit crooked. AND also sleeping well made me curious about lymphatic massage, fascia work, and my overall morning routine, and now my body is better supported to create a life I no longer have to recover from.

And all because I finally had my basic need of rest met – It turned the key of my heart and opened a whole new universe for the world to now benefit from.

HOW COOL IS THAT? HOW DO I GIVE THIS TO THE WORLD BETTER?! Someone should really get me a literary agent and get this book tour started. 😉

Anyway, love and light to you all. Take care! Bye!