Anami Grace | Made Up Life

You’re going to meet someone important. Is the what God? The Universe? Source? My Higher Self? always tells me before I meet myself through a new experience.

And it’s hilarious because I’m always actively looking for the person I’m going to meet, and then it’s always me. I carefully dressed myself in my black lace top, leggings to show off my fantastic ass, my leather jacket, and my knee high boots. I wore my hair down and wild, and strolled into the hottest local steak house like god sent me, because they did.

I was celebrating, because I’d just made the most terrifying decision of my life and quit the 9-5 job that was going to let me go at the end of 2025 anyway. But I did it. I did it scared. I did it not knowing what was going to be next to me. But knowing I had to find myself along the way.

I found myself through the deep pleasure through each bite of my perfectly cooked steak, my potato that had chives, bacon, sour cream, and was so crisp and perfect.

Through each sip of my mocktail, and through each time the server checked on me – while I sat between two couples at the bar. I sat more deeply in the pleasure of the world I’d been busy creating. Me.

I couldn’t stop smiling, because this was it. This was the work I came here to do. To enjoy the experience of having a human body that loves food.

And that’s the thing, right? When you incarnated on this planet. Where everything is upside down and backward. And find that the only work that really matters is that of finding the treasure of you, under all of the gunk of *gestures vaguely* it truly shifts everything in the world, if only for you.

But if only for you is the wild part right? Because YOU are the entire universe contained in one human body. Your guides are just versions of you that incarnated through different lifetimes, times, places, planets. All there to support your evolution through the density of the 3D.

Every day, every trial, every relationship, every distortion is always asking the question: are you ready to choose yourself? Are you ready to hold your ridiculousness? Are you ready to do the work of caring for your human body?

And every time you choose yourself over the noise. Every part of your body, soul and spirit celebrates the occasion. Because it gets you closer to free.

All of this. Is a production. Y’all. This is the series finale of ‘Merica. Do not believe anything you see unless you see it right in front of you – or have a deep internal knowing about it. Our biggest “soft” export is entertainment and right now we’re putting on quite a show. But this is Oz. And the wizard is telling on himself for all of the ways he hurt the most powerful and disenchanted souls.

Every televised horror, every news clip, everything created to scare, distract, every beautiful lie not rooted in love – is all here for you to come to the end of yourself and wake you up to the reality that all of this is a distorted fever dream created to keep you stuck in the same 40 loops over and over again.

But, really. You are the only work you can do right? You are the only one you can hold, love, change, nurture, and accept fully. Because you’re the only one who is ever going to understand or validate exactly what your experience held.

So, when you finally accept the absurdity of everything you’re shown through your black mirrors. And decide to become who you need. When you care for your human body – as the only interface you can prove exists in a totally made-up world. It’s then that you learn to meet your shadows.

It’s then that you learn that your internal world is the one that has to shift first. That the distortion around what wealth looks like is part of the production. Because when you are truly wealthy and fully possess yourself. You want the whole world to share in your wealth. And you help the world rise.

It’s time to meet yourself through a variety of real life experiences. It’s time to remember that life is actually supposed to be enjoyed. You’re supposed to find your smile, your laugh, your kindness for yourself, it’s time to indulge your need to create beauty in the world. If only for you.

It’s time to be your own monster and meet your unhealed parts through the coherence of healing. “To the monsters we are monsters.” So to your shadows it’s going to feel threatening at first. But your little shadows just want to be held, acknowledged, loved, and treated with dignity and joy.

And you wouldn’t believe how this work. The most important work of you. Will shift the physical ground beneath your feet. And how you will become allergic to the harm of others through loving yourself.

My name is Anami Grace. And I met myself and made up a life I loved through loving the exploited, harmed, abused, undesirable parts of myself into wholeness. I invited them to come along and to live in my human body with me. And now they are the pieces of me who shine most brightly in the sun.

And it was the best gift I’ve ever given myself, and to the world.

But when everything outside of you screams to pay attention, seek out the quieter spaces in your soul and grab a shovel to start on the work of yourself first. It is the most important work you can ever do.

Anyway, love and light to you all. Take care. Bye.