Anami Grace | Made Up Life

In the 90s there was a trend where people would call radio stations and say “Long time listener, first time caller.” And I thought about creating a video series on TikTok with that tag line; but then I remembered that not everyone remembers things like that so…It would be lost on a whole generation of people uninterested in the quaint nostalgia of forgotten trends. I was going to say “First time human, long time fan” as the hook for my videos on being Arcturian Starseed having my first human experience, but unfortunately my brilliance is once again lost to the world. *sigh*

But. Speaking of which. Y’all know that isn’t unusual. Right. The reason why it’s interesting though is because the majority of Millennials –> Gen Alpha are first time humans. Especially if you are neurospicy at ALL. It’s the evolutionary necessity to hold our higher levels of consciousness in human bodies, was to make them autistic. And then experience life as though that’s a disability when, in fact, it is an evolutionary advantage.

We’re the pattern breakers, the ones who came to this earth to shift consciousness through holding ourselves in human flesh. But. There is a catch, we have to hold all of the trauma, pain, adverse experiences we volunteered to hold, in balance with our own fierce love. And new age spirituality is simply escapism asking us to astral travel, seek beyond our human bodies, and to connect to the world through multiple dimensions. Which. Is okay for a time – but it is just rampant escapism rebranded for the terms of the time.

We came here to hold a human experience. Which is why a lot of my spiritual journey was moving my body through the pain of this existence. And finding the wholeness only held in finding the exact balance necessary for me to hold myself in both spirituality and the only moment we ever have – the present one.

It’s something I’ve never really understood about humanity. That y’all’s only constant is change, but you seem so dead set on always holding the same moment over and over again, watching the same 45 shows, movies, scenarios play out over and over again. Playing out the same loops, relationships and timelines over and over again until you’re forced to examine how you hold yourself through time space.

And almost being allergic to the suggestion that might not be the best way to exist. Getting mad at and frustrated with the constant state of flux you have the opportunity to exist in.

To be human means that ANY moment can be the moment your life changes forever.

But to be human means that changing is painful in a way your human body might not be ready to hold yet. And so, you have to go about expanding your capacity for both love and pain.

I’ll give you an example. When I first got Lily (my most perfectest angel baby sent from heaven) I was so afraid to love her and lose her. But I already did love her, and losing her was the inevitable cost of loving her. Eventually, we will both have to hold ourselves in our mortality, and we will lose this 3D vessel carrying us through the density of existence in this realm.

But if I block myself from loving her, enjoying her company, and the richness of the relationship we get to create together, I am robbing myself of the comfort of the moment we have. The only one that we have. And by robbing the only moment we have with the fear of a moment that will eventually hold us, we steal from both moments.

Does that make sense? Like. You can only show, receive, hold love and joy in the current moment you’re in. You can send love ahead to a moment of loss, but holding it in fear and distortion robs you of the sacredness of both moments.

It will be a sacred tale of our love when she crosses the rainbow bridge. But the moment of her puppy dreams smushed beside me is the only moment we can have in the current conditions.

And, as an outsider looking in, this has always perplexed me. The grief of the future is held in the moment you’re experiencing right now, and you’ll only regret the love you didn’t give or receive. Not the money you didn’t make.

The beauty of each moment is held in its fleeting nature. Because you can never, ever, ever have the same moment twice. For in the time it took to create the moment you’re in, your body has fundamentally shifted. If nothing else.

So, as an Arcturian Starseed. My advice is to learn how to love your human body. Be in it for each moment. Ask yourself: does my human body need anything else? Is there anything I can do to hold more joy? More of my pain? Is there anything else I can learn? Is there something else that I can do to support myself through being human on planet earth?

And then, give it to yourself. Expand yourself. Expand your consciousness. Expand your experience, choose the extra lesson. Hold yourself in the discomfort of being human. Because we cannot live comfortable lives and continue to be comfortable. Our lives require a level of discomfort, so we must choose our discomfort wisely.

My grandpa always said “Kiddo, if you like it. It will change. Kiddo. If you don’t like it. It will change.”

Use the opportunity to change for your benefit. But. Don’t take my word for it. This is only my first time being human on planet earth. First time human, long time fan.

Anyway, love and light to you all. Take care! Bye.