Anami Grace | Made Up Life

I was on Facebook tonight, and my eyes were immediately assaulted by the headline about a paraplegic who won her right to death with dignity suit because she was tragically harmed by a large group of men.

It was alarming because it’s awful that we live in a world where that is a normal headline that we scroll right by without ever even considering why we think this is normal or okay. And. I had to walk myself back from the rabbit hole and I wanted to tell you how I worked through it just in case it’s helpful to someone.

So I said to myself: Anami Grace. We are so incredibly sorry we put that in your brain. We would like to close this app, we would like to put on some music, and we would like to figure out if we can get you something to eat. Like, I had to put on my problem solving brain for a hot second because I’d just harmed myself by putting terrible information into me by way of the portal of my eyeballs.

I asked myself: Is there anything we can do to support you in this moment? Do we need to change anything about our current circumstances? Can we get you something to eat? Can we get you a sweatshirt? Do you want music? Does your physical body need to move? HOW CAN WE HELP YOU ANAMI GRACE? WE ARE HERE for you.

Because. We are. I became the collective Anami Grace once I integrated all of these neat little shadows that shine most brightly in the sun. And, my favorite thing to do in this entire world is to help support myself through this challenging experience of being human. On planet earth. While dumbasses are still pretending it’s capitalism outside and haven’t spent enough time figuring out themselves long enough to do a damn thing about the world. Right?

And. I realized as I went into helpful Anami mode, that the only thing I can ever do about any headline I can read. Is to live a wonderful life. I can only do what I can to make myself happy, and out of that abundance then…Share my wonderful life as far and wide as I can.

I can only ever move my own body out in the sun. I can only have this one stupidly ridiculous experience exactly in my human body.

And when we see that. When we hold that. When we move that truth through our bodies. We then have space to truly hold how awful it is that we live in a world where someone had to choose to end their life because we couldn’t imagine a better way to raise and help a generation of men who felt the bloodlust of the audacity to take away their victim’s life. Forever. I can hold space for how awful that is, because I first held space for what I needed in a world where that was even a thing.

This. This is our moment to evolve. Y’all. We have to stop imagining that any of this is normal or okay. And start about the work of the ONLY thing we can do. Love ourselves enough to change our whole worlds.

May the force be with you. Love and light to you all. Take care. Bye.