Anami Grace | Made Up Life

I always go out of my way to be incredibly kind to everyone I meet, and I never really thought much about that until recently. Because this awakening/shadow work journey has been all about holding the unconscious and bringing it into my awareness. But throughout my life I’ve been treated very unkindly at times, and I always held the “golden rule” of treating everyone like I want to be treated with esteem and with love, without ever thinking that I was a person that needed to be treated kindly too.

That fun little blind spot got touched by my own love and do you remember the part in the movie “Inside Out” where sadness infuses her love into everything, by touching it? I imagine that, only with my light for illuminating this part of myself that I now get to explore.

Every evening over the past week I’ve had a different shadow come out to be held in alignment as the divine feminine overlay has been doing its last little installations in my body, mind and soul. And last night I swallowed a bubble of light and it was kindness. And I moved it through my body, stirring it like it was the soup of my soul, dancing with it to move it through my biofield. The bubble was of kindness, and as it expanded within me it showed me all of the times, places, people, things that have hurt me through unkindness.

And as it was alchemized through my body through the creation of dinner I saw the unkindness as a lesson in myself. An opportunity to better know myself through giving myself my gift of kindness first, and then once it was right inside of me, moving it through time space to send the unkindness back to where it belonged, but this time encoded with the transmutation of effort, diligence, joy, patience, hope and you guessed it, kindness attached to it.

It was a return to sender spell when I think about it, but it was everything intended to harm me, that I moved and made beautiful because of my experience of it.

Because the other people who are unkind to us, especially those voices in our heads, are simply us giving ourselves a sneak attack of being a jerk to the person we’re meant to care for the most, ourselves.

And so, as the bubble of kindness popped I imagined that surround sound music moving it like a force both inward and outward. Inside of myself to quiet all of the voices who were mean to me, and outward for all of the people who projected their unkindness on to me.

Returning it with my signature love.

But this is your reminder that some of the kindest souls on this planet are that way because of hyper-empathy due to being held in some pretty challenging and harmful experiences in which they were mistreated, and never wanting ANYONE to feel that way. Ever.

And knowing that once that shadow work of that unkindness is moved through them they will return it to the unkind with their love attached and create a more beautiful world from that center.

Anyway. Love and light to you all. Take care! Bye.