Anami Grace | Made Up Life

Since October of 2024 the question I’ve been asking myself is: What gets me closer to the life I want?

At the time I was newly sober from alcohol. Still living with my ex-boyfriend. Knowing that I had a big dream and a lot of trauma to work through. And not really knowing if life as I know it today could even exist.

All of my life I’ve known that I was here to hold this specialness within me and reflect it to the world. But if I’d gone viral on my first TikTok post like I’d imagined it would have been incredibly dysregulating. So as much as I needed the journey home to myself. I needed to build the internal framework to support my fame too. Right?

But I’ve been thinking about this globally too. What do we want the world to look like? Can we imagine a world in which everyone has what they need? And what are we doing on an individual level to bring the vegan + bacon to earth?

We aren’t going to wake up tomorrow in the matriarchy. I mean. I HOPE we do. But. We have to build the internal framework internally before that can exist. Because the matriarchy isn’t the patriarchy reversed. It’s a whole new framework of centering the vulnerable in society and creating pathways for everyone to do well.

So this morning as I cooked my vegan tomato egg, I was stuck with this thought. What if we took the idea of vegan + bacon and applied it to everything?

The idea of vegan + bacon is that one might want to BE vegan, but have a very hard time giving up the salty, crispy, goodness of bacon in order to BE vegan. So in a world where titles are less valuable than the house I lost in 2008. Why not be vegan and still eat bacon?

Why not embrace the fact that titles are all made up, and we have to find the balance of everything through the messiness of existing as human on planet earth.

Maybe past trauma keeps you from doing something you really want to do. But maybe you can do something adjacent to THE THING. (Whatever you just considered as you read that sentence is THE THING.)

My name is Anami Grace and I want to be a New York Times Best seller. And that is closer than ever because I hold the magic, autism & air signs to be able to make that dream a reality. And perhaps having a blog won’t be the path directly to there. But today I woke up closer to that dream because I embraced my own ridiculousness, rejected the perfectionism and showed up for myself imperfectly so hard that I accidentally made up a life I loved and the book Made Up Life wrote me first.

And, I’m going to find myself along the way. Because I will rise to meet the road as much as the road will find me. And that version of myself has to do EVERYTHING within her power to create a world where that is not only logical but inevitable.

So how do we vegan + bacon the matriarchy? We have to become the matriarchy as much as the matriarchy has to rise.

Can we take a moment and examine our internal sexism that keeps us believing that women need to fix a problem they’ve been trying to fix since *gestures vaguely*?

Can we support women creators? Can we share content that gets us closer to love and compassion? Can we examine gender roles and misogyny? Can we hold onto kindness within our communities?

Can we for a MOMENT stop putting scary things in our heads and think that is just something that is going to magically create the peace we want?

What gets us closer to the matriarchy? So that it’s not just something that falls out of the sky one day dystrgulating the masses?

We can have the lives of our dreams, but we have to let go of some things. We have to edit somethings. And every day we can get a little closer to this magic of women leading the world into peace and love.

But we also have to let go of what is already dead. We have to grieve the bill of goods we were sold and we have to vegan + bacon the shit out of creating a pathway to a world where everyone does better.

Anyway. Love and light to you all. Take care! Bye.